Just me

Im in the corner watching you kiss her.... Im right over here, why cant you see me... 
I'm givin' it my all, but I'm not the girl you're takin' home..

I keep dancin' on my own...

Ever had a block party? I have not, at least not me personally and not in this country. I think it will be more mellow then in Cali.
Perhaps people will actually be nice and chat with me. It is hard being the odd one out. Having been a loner all my life I tend to not be the one that approaches others really.
Heres to hope that I will make new friends,

You know it is hard to let someone go even tho you know it is what's best for everyone. I mean if there is caring, love and a desire for each others happiness. How could it possibly not work? How could things fall apart so easily when they worked so well for years?

This is hard!

Bye my friend. The lack of respect is huge. You say you care, then you do this?
It's time for me to leave you. I will love yo always.

A kilo over night? Huh?
Maybe my scale is broke. Hope not!

It has been cold lately. Nice, pretty, sunny, HUGE clouds and hail. It is almost summer. What happen to the warm weather?

I didn't eat cake. 17th of May is full of parades, bunads, ballons, Ice cream and tons of avalible cakes at the schools.
Yet I didn't have any. I use to enjoy this aspect of the holiday. Guess my love for cake is officially dead.

I would have told you about my day.
Bought some clothes, can you believe it? Me? Went shopping!!!
Well I have lost over 23 kilos now. I do need new clothes, nothing fits me anymore.
A size medium for the shirt. It was great! I don't look too fantastic ya know, but the sight of me in the mirror  didn't make me cry!  Yay me!

Man, I miss you!  :(

Check your stuff.
There is soo many places on line to have profiles and some people that have so many so some get neglected.
Yet I don't have an e-mail!
Check your stuff!

Since the last post was about my weight loss, I figured I would fill you in just a bit with my issues on it.

First off I don't gain weight. I've only gained during my pregnancies, never before in my life (except for childhood growth of course) did I gain weight or ever again after. I use to be a diligent gym go'er. You get kinda turned off to such things when you work so hard for years to just gain weight that wont go away. So I stopped working out everyday at gyms about 6 years after my first pregnancy. Nothing was getting lost. (Funny, even after I stopped going to the gym I didn't gain weight either!) Very strage I thought. For years I couldn't wrap my head around it, so I just focused on another part of my life then.


Well I figured it out. At least I figured it out for me. POISONS! Thats all it was, spices and some "healthy foods" that had hidden POISONS in them. So I eat the same, the only difference is I create my own spice mixes, and a few sauses I liked and dishes I just make from scratch. My favorite dishes even taste better now! :)

Nothing too radical. I don't go raw, I can't see me not cooking, I love cooking. I can't go vegetarian. I get too tired. I checked a while back metabolic typing and I seem to be more on the protien side and I prefer to get my protien from animal sources. From my lifestyle and ability to get foods, it is just the best source for me. So threw the years I have dabbles in a few things.
Oh... I do avoid sugar at all costs. It is HARD to do this, so it is the only thing I pay attention to. I don't even count calories. I just make sure there is no sugar in the food I am getting. The only exception is fruit. I love fruit!  :)

I only drink water. I will drink juice or broth if I am sick. Also on special occasions I will drink with friends. I set aside 2 days a week where I can eat anything I want, that way if I go out with friends or to a party, there is no guilty feelings. Stuff like that can ruin good eating habits. You get guilty, then you get sad, then you give up and eat. No comfort foods for me please. I don't want or crave them.

So I figured it out for me, Yay ME!