Just me

No, not the song. Me
Seems everything that wants to go wrong is going wrong.
Sometime I feel like I am being punished.
But for what?

I heard a story today from a friend of mine.
It was about a little girl about 2 that was diagnosed with terminal cancer and died in the hospital.
The thing was (and to me this is terrible) her parents seemed to not be able to handle what was happening. So they left her in the hospital to die alone. A 2 year old baby that only really knew her parents love. Was left abandoned to die a painful death with strangers.
They never came to visit her, not even other family members.
The doctors had to call the parents to tell them she had passed away.

I find this very hearbreaking and sad.
Just felt the need to share.

I got hurt today.
I was doing a bit of packing. So I was sititng on the floor taking books off my bookshelf when all of a sudden a flashlight comes flying at me. Man that hurt!
Now why that was on the bookshelf and not in the cupboard where it belongs, I have no clue. The batteries were dead as well. So I think I need to have a talk with my kids.
So yea, a day ful of OUCH and blood. So much fun!

I just heard about this today.
Are people really mental enough to think in the end they will be better off?

Sad sad sad!!!

Ok. I am a bit annoyed.


One thing I enjoy doing is browsing about YouTube.
Yet when you come across something that the audio has been removed, it is very frustrating. Especially when it is because of a song in the background of a video when the actual video is of someone talking! You remove the song, but also remove the information/person with is the main point of the video! Bad FORM!

First off, when they do that it is Free Publicity for you!!! A lot of songs I run across I have never heard before and some I actually liked and some I ended up buying!
Secondly, a video like that will never replace actually just listening to the song! There is someone talking for goodness sakes!
Third off, doing that makes me not like your company to the point I will avoid you at all costs!

I KNOW I am not the only one that feels this way so, you aren't protecting anything. In the end you are loosing customers and doing wrong by the artists that sign with you.

I can understand if someone steals a music video, to stop that. But still, People want quality when they like something and you don't really get good quality on YouTube. People will buy what they like for the quality.

Why make yourself look bad and greedy this way?
So sorry Warner Music Group - WMG, I will be avoiding you from now on till you stop messing with these things.

Gonna be busy busy busy.
Got the keys to my new place so for a while it will all be packing and moving. So much fun.
There are some things I want to change, but they might be a bit too pricey for me, but we will see.

Lets just hope I sell my old place soonish.  :)

Time for my coconut oil bath, then bed. Oh I love that stuff!!!

I know who my friends are... I think

I know who I feel close to at least. Not sure how to treat someone I have known for a few years now. She is an odd one. I guess I will figure it out in time.

I just can't. I can not find anything good about this woman. I have given her the benefit of the doubt. You have to when kids are involved. I mean she did marry my ex and he really wasn't such a bad guy. Well till he met her. *sigh*


So many things she has done to prove she is a piece of garbage, to me, to my sisters to my son and to my ex! Yet people like her, my ex loves her, he use to have higher standards. So so sad. Even my mom likes her! If we get into any conversation about her or a situation that I tell my mom about, all my mom can do is defend her. You would think that she is her kid, not me.

At first I thought this might be jealousy on my part. You know her being with the first man I married. The guy that was suppose to be with me till death. Well yea, I am over that. It has been almost decade since we divorced and I have been over him for quite a long time now.

I have her on my Facebook. My husband has no clue why nor does my best-friend understand why she is there. It is mainly because my ex and I share a child and well with her married to my ex, she is a part of his life.

She is hugely religious. She broke up with my ex at one point because the church she attended told her to. They didn't like his attitude. She has a self richous personality and acts like she cares for everyone. Which is a load. I doubt I am the only one who sees it, but you would think that some people would notice it too.

I guess I am revisiting my major dislike for this woman for several reasons.

One, not to long ago my son has asked me why I wanted his brother dead... WHAT? I never said I wanted anyone dead let alone their kid! How the F could she tell my son such a thing?!!! She also told him my ex and my marriage fell apart because I cheated and left him for my current husband, which is a blatant lie as well!

My ex and her were together for 6 months before I met my current husband and a year before we started dating and longer than that before we met in person. (Yup long distance over the net, thats why I am in Norway now) She had worked with my ex for several years actually and told me once that she fell in love with him the day she met him. Almost what, 3 years before we ended our marriage. We use to chat a lot before I moved away, I think sometimes she forgot who she was talking to.

I have tried. I really did, but everytime something comes up with her, it makes me remember why I dislike her.
She is a horrible person and a horrible selfish mother.

I think I need to take her off my Facebook. My son isn't 18 yet, but I don't think I can stomach this woman anymore. It is sad tho, I know when I cut ties with her it will burn what was left of my relationship I had left with my ex. We were close friends even after the divorce. He use to be best-friends with my sister and my parents were very close to him as well. She has single handedly ruined his relationship with each and every one of them.

Sorry for the long vent. Hopefully I will have something better to post sometime soon.

I have a dream. I don't know how to achive it, but it is there. It hasn't left me. I have had this dream for 4 years now going on 5.
The intensity comes and goes. Well dosen't go go, the desire is always there. It is just some days I am more focused on it, thinking about it than other days.
Have you ever been so in love with a dream that there was no getting over it, just following a path trying to reach it?

It's so out of the ordinary how it happen no one believes it. So many assumptions fly about to what really happen. Till notes are read and medical reports are checked. Blind belief ion a chemical is not a good thing. Oh no!
Me being over weight... a hormone issue... but it is assumed I just have very bad eating habits. So of course I pass on that to my kids.
No No NO!
It's amazing how people can ignore what you are saying because they assume what they see and what they have experienced can only be the answer. Ok it is a bit infuriating.
Thank goodness when something was pointed out to me as a matter of fact was a total shock that they got the fact that we are telling the truth!
Attitudes changed assumptions seem to start disapearing and understanding that this is actually a different case all together.
Feel better.

Tomorrow. Not looking forward to it, not one bit. I have an appointment and had a friend that was comming with me to help with my understanding. (My Norwegian is pretty bad). Just found out he is sick and can't make it.
My husband has to come now and he has a phobia with this place. So yea, stress, grumpiness and perhaps fainting will occupy my day tomorrow. Oh joy!

My little one had her first real disapointment.
A party she was looking forward to all weekend. She had gotten ready today several hours before and refused to play so her dress would stay nice.
The party wasn't that great, the face painter didn't know how. She had me remove the paint the second we got home. Also it was very short party with a tiny play area. :(
Yes, it was not at the birthday girls home, but a fast food place.
Live and learn I guess.
Tomorrow she has a play date at one of thoes play land areas. So I think she will forget all about the party after tomorrow. :)

I just can't seem to get to sleep lately. Insomnia is such an interesting thing.
I have been forcing myself to get to bed by 3am, at the latest 5 am. But I end up still lying in bed staring up at the ceiling.
So you learn something new every day.. I have a few cracks in the ceiling paint. Hmm, maybe I should fix that one of these days.
Night.  :)

So much fun.
M: Time for bed...
S: I know mom...
10 minutes later....
M: Time to get ready for bed!
S: One sec mon...
M: NOW!
This went on for almost an hour. Needless to say he is grounded.