Just me

I asked a question, just one and it was like I had stripped him down and tied im to a chair with a light shining on his face. *sigh*

OK, so I am not too happy today, so I thought of a theme for this blog. I need to always find one thing at least good. AND I can't always repeat the same thing. So I need to look for something new and good all the time. Gesh, I am mean!
I  mean I woke up today at 7:30am and haven't really been out of bed all day, just lying there. I feel shitty  and I feel shitty a lot, so that is a tall order to find something good all the time.
I was SOOO depressed today because it seems my best-friend is trying to get away from me. He is sick of me right now (I'm hoping just right now). Lately I have been catching him lying to me to just to get away. Even when we have been away from each other for a while. So like last night when we finally had a chance to talk, he said he had to go to bed. You know work in the morning and had a small headache. Well, he was on the computer playing games all night. (These are the games we play together on line always, so if he is on, I can see it) So I tried to call him to see if he wanted me to join and nothing, no answer. So not only did he lie about needing to go, he ignored my calls. He was still there 2 hours later, but I left it alone. If he needed space he needed space. He had to have known I logged in because the games informs of other friends playing.
I think I am more upset that he felt he had to lie about it. Not sure if we still have a friendship if he needs to resort to that.  :(  Is our respect out the window? He just needs space? You know, it hurts when the closest person to you does this shit. It is like a slap in the face or something.

Ok, so something good. Found a house and we are finally planning on actually putting a bid on. So we will see how that goes. Something to look forward to.

Some days seeem to be better than others. Like today. Something I have been waiting for for several months has finally happend. Not exactally the way it was suposse to, but it is better than it not happening at all. So that is good.
On the bad side, I lost a friend. Well not really lost, more let go. Guess when you find out a friend has no respect for you and your opinions, what else is there to do? I never expected her to agree with all my opinions, but at least respect me that I have them. The funny thing it wasn't even my opinion that I was stating. I knew she disagreed with me on my opinion on the subject, so I was just being suportive with her situation, being sympathetic and expressing a good way to get back to what SHE believed on the subject. If I was going with my opinion and pushing it on her, I wouldn't have been suportive and would have just told her I was glad the way things happend, it is better this way! But I just get yelled at and muted on skype and ignored like I am some insensitive nutter. F that!
Perhaps this is for the best I guess. We will see.

Hello there,
Yes I have blogged before and was very very lazy about it. Yet it is something I do like to do. Send thoughts into the world and get other peoples views.
This time hopefully I can keep up with it. I have going threw some horrid times lately and it is either give up or try something new. Well, this is not exactally new, the blogging thing, but reaching out. This is a new site and a new community with it and we will see what happends.
I am not gonna start ranting about my problems. That would just bore everyone to death and make me look pretty pathetic. So I will talk about issues as they come up if I am so inclined.
So hello all and welcome to part one of trying again. :)
/waves