Just me

Made it. Had to get stuff done at the hospital. Instead of getting out by 5, I had to stay the night. I will just pretend that I was there because they liked me, not because of complications.
But I am home now and feeling better.
Hope everyone is good.  :)

Yesterday was a bit crazy. Ended up in the hospital most of the day.
Man I hate hospitals. The closemindedness is boggling sometimes.
Well I am home now. All is well. Well so to speak.

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

(Katy Perry - Thinking Of You)

I know the things I want. I know what I don't want. I just don't know how to get what I want.
Seems that the things that I want get in the way of other people- So I don't have them. So how do I become happy with settling or how do I get what I want without it interfearing with the ones I love?

Hoping to figure this one out some day.

The word is fat.
Yes I am, just a bit. Not as big as some but definatly bigger than others.
So is this good or bad? Some men like thier woman skinny and some fat. My husband makes no comment on it. He says he love me and thats that, but it isn't like I light his fire anymore either.

I have never been into fasion or bothering with my apperance, but that was before I had weight. My face really dosen't hold it well and I don't like how I look at all. I do think that it is becoming noticable in my behavior that I am not too happy with myself.
I started to work on make up and next will be clothing. I want to be able to get out of bed, put on a pair of jeans and t-shirt just like I use to and look good.
Meh!


P.S. Just as a side not, my weight issue is a hormone issue that started when I had my kids, not an eating one, so getting on a diet and loosing weight isn't the answer for me. I do eat healthy and work out. So this is something I have to live with.

So it seems that everytime I am in a good mood, my behavior makes the people closest to me grumpy.
Could it really be me? Hmmmm

An old friend called me today. So thats good. :)

Trying to take time to get some "me" time in and everything tries to get into the way. It is like a light bulb goes off in peoples minds that it is the best time to call me is right now! Argh...argh... grumble.. grumble.

Good thing is the kitty is at least giving me space, nice and cute fast asleep.

Göteborg.
I love this city!!!
Since the first time I visited. I stepped off the train and I was hooked.
I came to surprise a friend for his birthday. So two of his friends were gonna meet me at the station, but they were delayed a couple of hours. Yet I was so taken with the city that I didn't care. This was about 3 years ago and I can't get enough of the place. Whenever I have a week, I get on a train and head back. It feels like home to me now. To bad I may never get to live there permanently.

Here's to hoping!
Skål!

The sound of the rain on the roof, it is just music to my ears!

So yea, nope, no house. Seems people loved it a little more than we did.

On the up side, my best-friend is still about.
Not sure I am really happy about this lying kick he is on, but I think I am getting it. He wants time to himself and it seems he dosen't want me to feel bad that he wants to be alone during time we normally spend. (Between work and stuff, in the evenings is his only free time and we usually spend it together.) So instead of telling me to go away and give him space, he says he is going to bed and of course I will not feel bad about him being tired. So hopefully I will be Ok with that and not obsess in wondering if he is really tired. I can tend to obsess.

Good thing, is I get to relax for a few more days. Someone else is working in the shop for now since I am not good at what is going on, so a little less stress.
Hope whoever is reading this, you are well and have a great night.  :)